hold onto me.

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When the best of me is barely breathing. Hold onto me. 

When I'm not somebody, I believe in. Hold onto me. 

When I don't feel like I'm worth defending. Hold onto me. 

When I start to break in desperation. Hold onto me.

Hold onto me when I forget I need you. When I let go, hold me again. 

I could rest here in your arms forever, cus I know nobody loves me better. Hold onto me.

Lauren Daigle- Lines from Hold onto Me.


I heard my new friend Waisy singing this song this morning. I hadn't heard it before. I've now heard it about 100 times. I'm still walking through the day feeling like quite the failure. Exhausted. Crabby and not gracious towards my kids. BUT Music. not just Music. Worship. 

I have found myself in the past couple weeks singing kids music when I'm overwhelmed, when Judah's crying, when life is hard. Worship doesn't have to be big perfect songs. It doesn't need a band. It doesn't need to be the whole song. It just needs your heart. Your heart crying out to Him. You sing, you hum, you cry and sing the words in your head. He hears it all, he takes it all, and he walks with you. 

I have decided to follow Jesus, no turning back, no turning back. 
Rejoice. Rejoice. and again I say rejoice. 
Hold onto me. 
In the morning, when I rise, give me Jesus. 
I love you Lord, and I lift my voice, to worship you. 
It is well, with my soul. 
Be thou my vision. 
Jireh, you are enough. 
This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine. 
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, your perfect love is casting out fear. 
Thank you for the cross Lord. Thank you for your nail pierced hands. 


All the lines that won't leave me alone this week...Coming to mind in highs or lows. 

Praying for you that worship would help you walk through the valley. Walk, not staying, continuing the journey wherever it leads; out of the valley, deeper into it, or to a mountain, or maybe just a little hill. May he prepare that table before you, in the presence of all the hard things. May you see and feel and know and taste His cup overflowing, him pouring it. Just for you. Fullness, while still in the valley. I pray that you will know that goodness and mercy does follow you, even if you do not feel it. He is there. He is present. He does not leave. 

Hold onto Me. 




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